What Does It Feel Like to Travel In Time?
I talk a lot about being your infinite you, and yet comprehending infinity is about as fleeting as enlightenment. It’s a concept rather than an understanding. If you’re able, it may be far more accessible to operate in infiniteness within the timeline of this life, within this body.
The thinking mind is a grid. What you think you know is limiting you. Let me paint you a picture. You are at an entry to a maze. The sky is dark above you, yet there is just enough light for you to see the walls of the maze are built of besser block, painted a drab colour like taupe or beige. You can see a glow coming from the horizon, beyond the walls of the maze, and it feels to you like light at the end of the tunnel, it feels as though this maze can be solved and enlightenment awaits you if you could just get over there. Now imagine the walls of the maze lift high into the sky and almost disappear. You can clearly see all around you. The spaciousness is overwhelming but you can see your destination and so you take a step towards the horizon. You are drawn towards the light.
Now the story becomes a choose your own adventure, for if you repeat what you have been taught, the bricks in the maze come crashing back into existence. If you think “this is impossible”, “this isn’t real”, “I can’t do this”, “this is too easy”. If you question your sanity, lean into control, doubt, fear or decide on what you know – you find yourself trapped in the maze. It’s loud as the bricks fall down from space, and you feel within your bones how confined you have almost instantly become. You regret the overwhelm of the spaciousness as it is now contrasted against this limiting, potentially endless maze. You wonder if you could dismantle the maze brick by brick.
If you do not repeat what you have been taught, you slowly become accustomed to the expanse that lays before you. You relax into the all-encompassing experience. It is in this expanse that you now have access to the infinite reaches of time. Your awareness spans your whole life if you let it. You now operate from a plane of existence SO VAST that anything is possible here. It is from here that your memories come to meet you. As worm holes open up you can hop effortlessly along the linear time frame of the 3D reality.
And you know you are physically standing in your kitchen, laying on your couch or wherever you find yourself in the present moment, but at the same time you are submersed in the memory. You play here, in this spaciousness, wary that the bricks could fall any moment and you become accustomed to the fact that you can move forwards into memories that have not yet reached you in time. You are infinite in this way, and all you needed to do was play.
In actuality the besser blocks of the maze drop around you often but you do not fret because once you have chosen the space over the limitations of what you know, you can choose it again, until it becomes so familiar that any other state is confining.
And so it is with the mind. The mind is a grid. We have overlaid the mind over our potential to help us deal with the overwhelm of the infinite now. This is important because it means you have a choice in when you employ your grid, if ever. The mind reacts to stimuli, the mind computes past information but it does not generate new thoughts. The mind is able to receive information but true creativity, knowing and flexibility through space come from beyond the confines of the mind. Moving the thoughts generated by the mind out of the way, to a place outside of yourself can feel overwhelming at first. This is due to the discomfort caused by being over doing, as well as discomfort caused by the mind itself, as the mind does not want to be obsolete.
There are ways to make this transition more comfortable. Firstly, speak kindly to the mind and fondly of it. We need it, it is a useful tool and we spent a lot of time developing it. It’s just that we need to be able to put it aside when we choose, in the same way we put aside a mug when it is empty or a laptop when it is not in use. The discomfort of being over doing may take a little more unlearning, depending on the individual of course. If what you can do and how fast or well you can do it have been valued up until now, choosing to not do, choosing no action whatsoever can lead to emotions such as guilt and shame, or perhaps create the space for difficulties we have been avoiding to rise. Please relax. If you need more support in this area, don’t hesitate to reach out to me. Remember you are powerful, you are magic, everything is a choice.
